Here is some more of my writing
Award Winning Poem
I wish I could write a good poem
The kind of poem
that makes you stop and say
I never thought about that"
I want to write something brilliant.
to throw away my kindergarden rambles
and mix beauty
and have it all
I want to be a poet one day
but I can barely
write a sentence
It seems they are always too incomplete
something desperately needed.
So much for being a poet,
Maybe I could work behind a counter
"would you like fries with that"
I could go home and write about it
I would write a good poem
I admire you
Do you admire yourself?
Do you see what I see?
I am a wall.
I am your wall
I hide behind myself.
You call my name
I echo a remark..
a slight, cliched phrase of doubt.
"Please hang up and try your call again.."
Will you hold me tight
refusing to let me give up
-give in- ?
Will you knock down the wall that is me?
Can you erase the blinding shadow I created?
Can you lead me to the right place?
Can you sit me down
and say "this is it!" ?
Can you be more than you are?
- have you?-
Why don't you flaunt your intelligence in my face a little more?
You should know just how pathetic I truly am,
so go ahead and feed your ego on that.
Make a banquet of humor
and endulge yourself in it.
You sit me up as your model.
Your plaster just dying to be transformed.
You shape me,
with a violent push,
and I sit quietly,
squishing under your ficious touch.
Your intelligence is self absorbed
yet I can't seem to see past you.
Just when I think I'm coming to my final conclusion on you
I shake my head
(oh no, I've mistaken you for someone else)
Show me off to a few friends
"this is my creation;
still in progress"
Laugh at me when I take my own path.
Mock me for my views
until I melt down
and allow you to re-shape me.
I would like to walk away
-- run away
but I'm held to my base
by the clue of your words.
I've been fooled
tricked into false security
and you are pulsing at the heart of it all.
do you keep me